Friday

02:26am

Sitting up in bed. Listening to the Hausa song #Rahama by Kaestrings

This song – one of my 2024 discoveries – has been playing in my head for days on end. Maybe because I have been immersed in studying the Biblical stories of

1. Blind Bartimaeus

2. Dorothy [my name for the faceless woman with the issue of blood]

3. Jairus daughter,

4. The father whose son was afflicted by demons

Or probably because the singer vividly evokes the scenes with those raw emotions in his voice. He paints that imagery of helplessness as each distressed person reaches out to #christ with the words;

“Ban da wani sai kai” (I have no one but you)

“Ka yi ma ni jinkai’ (be compassionate to me)

“Ga hawaye na” (see my tears)

“Ji addu’a ta” ( hear my prayer)

Moreover, it takes me back to that period. A time when I would be oblivious that tears were streaming down my face until someone points it out. A season I spent days & nights, approaching, pleading, stretching out my hands like each of those seekers above.

A period I kept crying

“Inda wurin wasu kana zuwa” (while on others thou art calling)

“Ya Yesu kar ka wuce ni” (Oh Jisos do not pass me by)

I cried to be spared that journey. Yet, that prayer was not answered.

Consequently, like Martha in the Bible, I lashed out passive-aggressively;

“Aha, so you can stop to help strangers & passersby? Those who have no prior relationship with you yet you ignored your own friend Lazarus till he died?

In conclusion, Could it be I picked up my phone to write this because of you. Yes, you. Arms outstretched in your despair, exasperated as to why he keeps stopping for everyone else yet ignores you

Trust me when I say

He will come.

amarannajicares #amarannajiwrites

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Note:
***Rahama is Hebrew/Arabic/Hausa for mercy/favour/compassion/kindness/womb/motherhood. It depicts the womb of a mother and how she has no option but to show kindness to her child.